Jessica

My heart is split

and

I think India is to blame.

I will never be the same, think the same, feel the same. For some reason that is making life hard right now. It would be so easy to live like I have never seen pain and suffering. To live like I have never seen love come out of injustice. But I have. It would plague me for the rest of my being to ignore these things.

I have lived in two seperate worlds. "The world out there" and "My comfortable home." Both of them feel like home. But one I always feel unsatisfied in. I feel like I could be doing so much more. I feel that if I ignore this that I would be ignoring part of my very being.

I need direction. I need conformation. I need to figure this all out.

lovejess

“In the entire history of the universe, let alone in your own history, there has never been another day just like today, and there will never be another just like it again. Today is the point to which all your yesterdays have been leading since the hour of your birth. It is the point from which all your tomorrows will proceed until the hour of your death. If you were aware of how precious today is, you could hardly live through it. Unless you are aware of how precious it is, you can hardly be said to be living at all.” -Frederick Buechner