Sometime I wander what my life would have been like if I stayed in college. What would I have ended up studying? Who would I have hung out with? Would I have been a different person? Would my views be the same? Part of me is sad that I missed out on four years that could have been great. I feel like I have missed out on some cultural norm that everybody has been a part of. It seems that I am sort of an outsider. I wander "what if?" But I cannot wander my entire life. I have been given amazing opportunities that many people dream for. I guess my life is "different."I think that as cool as that is, part of me has this need to belong.
To belong to something bigger than myself. To be part of a community, a movement. Part of a people that are flowing in the same direction. Challenging each other, questioning themselves, and hoping that there is some meaning to this big mess of life. I want to be actively pursuing what is to come. To take life as it comes, but not be afraid to get it moving too. I long to know people and to love them. To converse and know their lives, to be in their lives and to love them for the life they are living. I don't want to just love someone because I want love in return. I want to love because some bigger force out there is propelling me to do so.
Something is underneath it all.
This is beautiful. God is pushing and pulling each of us. We connect. This makes life so much worthwhile to me. To know that we all be long to God and we are all worth each others time. Now it is time for me to live this life I so desire. I feel like I have been holding back. I can't anymore.
Life is a gift, but our time is limited. Why not do what I feel I am on this earth to do.
Love.
To belong to something bigger than myself. To be part of a community, a movement. Part of a people that are flowing in the same direction. Challenging each other, questioning themselves, and hoping that there is some meaning to this big mess of life. I want to be actively pursuing what is to come. To take life as it comes, but not be afraid to get it moving too. I long to know people and to love them. To converse and know their lives, to be in their lives and to love them for the life they are living. I don't want to just love someone because I want love in return. I want to love because some bigger force out there is propelling me to do so.
Something is underneath it all.
This is beautiful. God is pushing and pulling each of us. We connect. This makes life so much worthwhile to me. To know that we all be long to God and we are all worth each others time. Now it is time for me to live this life I so desire. I feel like I have been holding back. I can't anymore.
Life is a gift, but our time is limited. Why not do what I feel I am on this earth to do.
Love.
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